Thanks for getting me into trouble :)

Now I know where the crowds came from.  Hermione kindly sent a post of mine to one of the very busy blogs Chross.

 

So indirectly it was Hermione who got me in trouble, not that the trouble lasted. Hermione, that was very nice of you, thanks.

 

Ronnie
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Trouble Brewed - I've JUST been punished

Its Weds abt 7pm and I've just been punished. Less than five mins ago and I want to write about it now while it hurts and I'm mad. He's gone to fetch his mother fromt the station and a bottle of white he'll be about 40 mins but I'll tell you how things cameabout later, right now I want to record how I feel.

Excuse the typos but Im not going to correct them, I'm burning up, sore, deep sting which fades and then returns and I'm shuffling from side to side, one cheek off the seat then the other, a padded dinning chair in front of my laptop, in fact I've got to get up and walk around.................less than a min I'm back, my legs were shaking they're ok now, sitting again, this is hurting my bums feeling tight I think it might be welts forming I'll take a look in amin, I think I can feelthem through my jeans, he used a leather strop he made ages ago and I've felt it many times but never likes this, I normally like leather. I wanted to cry at one point just before it ended, thought about safe word but I wasn't in danger I love and trust P, I was just being punished, I'd wanted it to happen i've wanted it to happen before xmas, now it has, i was definitely in the wrong I know that, i wish he was still here, hadn't done it at this time then had to dash to collect his mom, bringing her back her for dinner.

It HURTS it isnt fading or turning sexy or any of the usual stuff........stay there while I go to the bathroom..........back now crying, my eyes puffy, bums got welts at least 4 clear ones more on the right cheek and they curles round at bit, then there are lots more lines merged, deep red all over and hot to touch, I think there'll be bruises. And how do I feel right now, mistake? I dont think so not sure though, when it hurts so much its the wrong time to judge, I dont fancy sitting on one of these chairs for 2 sodding hours making small talk with his mom thats for sure. I've got stuff in the oven I need to check on so I'll go and be agood wife, god this hursts, I'll update later or tomorrow logging off now.

Ronnie

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Back again....

4 hours later my bums still sore. The ordeal evening was ok. When he got back from the station with his mom he had a great big bunch of flowers for me, Mmmm something smells nice, he said these are for my favourite girl and he gave me the flowers with a little peck on the cheek. I'd planned on giving him the cold shoulder but I just felt melty, I hurried off to busy myself in the kitchen his mom in pursuit, anything she could do to help you know how it goes. I'd rather it been him in the kitchen helping me, not saying anything, just being with me.

He's gone to take her home now, he'll be back soon, I'm not going to say anything when he gets back just be normal. Posting now. Goodnight.

Trouble Brewing

Wednesday is here and I already know it's a not-keeping-bargain day. I knew it last night when he told me his mom would be coming back from Worcester by train Wednesday evening and he was going to collect her from the station and as it was too late for her cook a meal he'd bring her back to ours. 'Oh and what about our Wednesday treat out?', I asked, to which he said, 'Well she could come with us if you like'. No thanks, I had that pleasure Sunday evening, what's wrong with taxis I wondered. This was near bedtime, I don't need words near bedtime, I let it pass but I wasn't happy.

 

So I've got to pick up something from the store and prepare for three of us to eat in. Or maybe I'll prepare something for two, leave it to microwave for him and his mom and I'll go out on my own. Joking. I'll get something in but I'm still not happy. We work hard, don't spend much, I'm not a shopaholic who has to have tons of shoes and handbags, so I like those Wednesdays together, not too much to ask, is it.

 

Ronnie  

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Definitely Trouble Brewing

Prior to Dec 2008 I could count on one hand the number of times I've been actually punished.


Once when I pretended to leave, it was a really stupid thing.
Once at home/office on a barbecue weekend.
Once when son started university.
Once on a New Years Eve which I wrote about recently.
Once in Gambia on holiday with friends (this was 50/50).

Spread over 20 plus years, that's about one every five years, all other spankings (and goodness knows there have been many) being labelled and packaged to suit the time, mood, place etc but all containing a pleasure aspect even when they've been hard. Punishment, without getting too bogged down here, is different in as much that it's spontaneous, there's no expectancy nor delivery of pleasure, it hurts differently physically and emotionally and it is inevitable.

That was until Dec 2008 when I definitely got punished, in connection with my blog. I posted about it to you guys, got quite agitated, pondered, almost brought up with P, prevaricated, mellowed, decided to run with it as it was in its own way, afterwards, quite thrilling and there was a definite intuition there could be more to come. Well it's only a few weeks later and I think............ there's definitely trouble brewing

It's late afternoon and he's seen my 'wet spanking' post. shit shit shit.....why didn't I delete it, then again why should I, I did use the editor to blot out my face and the story was all true so what's the harm.

That's not the point at all, he said, those images can be unravelled, something about removing the layers and restoring the original image, he'd do it and prove his point. What?? so I've been uncovered? you guys know who I am? I mean I honestly wouldn't mind except business and family.... well... I think perhaps not.
I'm sorry P, I didn't realise that could be done, please know that.

I'm sure he does know that but he said he's going to show me tomorrow how easy it is, and then I'll realise how foolish I've been, he'll deal with the matter appropriately, after which he'll have me remove my photo and that will be an end to it.

Wow! there was no mention of shutting me down. I think he's being very good about it, I hope I haven't compromised us in any way I would never do that, I think I'll deserve the 'p' word if that's what happens. I'm remorseful. Apprehensive. Excited. And grateful for having a husband who hasn't just gone through the roof.

Ronnie
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PS - No it isn't me.

Trouble Ahead

Second week back after the holiday.

I think there's trouble brewing. We've still got quite a bit of post, messages and ongoing business to pick up on, plus P's been talking with our accountant who wants to file last year's accounts well before Jan 31 deadline so they need to be finalised. With so much to do I was surprised when he asked me how the blog was going, he hadn't had chance to take a look at it for ages, he pulled it up on his laptop and smiled as he speed read the last entry. Then he noticed 'wet spanking' in the archive, that sounds interesting he said, I'll take a look later.

No no no, no need, its boring, I sent thought messages to him, wondering if I should delete it before he got chance to see it. It's the one where I posted a photo of me, which he'd told me not to but I'd still done it (with the face blotted out). The one I thought might get me closed down or cause the 'p' word to surface again.

Well I can handle the 'p' word, I told you about it before Christmas, if punishment weaves its way more frequently into our relationship I can handle it, even embrace it, I'm a big girl and it was kind of sexy that last time. But I can't handle being shut down, that would be suitcases at dawn, separate rooms, new laptop yes that's an idea I'd go out and get one of those dinky little 10'' screen ones I could tuck it into my handbag:). Anyway he hasn't looked yet, might even forget. We'll see.......

Ronnie
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