Friday, 11 May 2018

How She Feels

I was sent this by a new reader. I said that I had been sent it a few years ago but as I really like it, and some of my readers may have missed it, I would post it again.

How she feels.....before, during and after being spanked.

Before...

A deep arousing sensation wells up inside my lower abdomen when you firmly tell me you are going to spank me. It is partly sexual in origin, partly emotional. The sexual part changes, it stays sexual but that doesn't mean I want sex, which I don't.

The sexual aspect has to do with being over your knee, close to your body. It has to do with you baring my bottom for what you will do and seeing it vulnerable. It is the feel of your firm hands touching me, holding me down. It is knowing we will share loving feelings when it is over.

Emotionally, it is knowing you are in charge and will handle my behaviour and make decisions without my input. It is a pleasurable feeling to have you deciding how I will be disciplined—comforting at some distant level. The nature of this pleasure is what draws me to you, allows me to give consent for you to take control. I know it will hurt, but I will never be hurt.

It is wonderful to have such trust in each other. We do not get an opportunity for that very often—to have complete trust in another person. It is rare and unique. I do not consciously think these thoughts each time—my body's sensation is enough to flood me with a sense of well being. It leaves a smile inside me.

During...

Fear—definitely fear—not of you, but of what you must do. Excitement... as I go over your knee, as my panties are being pulled down, when I feel your leg go over mine to pin me in place... giving up control to you... moving to a place where I have to obey... where you are in charge, and I will be cared for and taken care of, where I feel you totally engaged with me.

Pain... while the actual spanking is happening, I think of very little else but the pain. I am begging for it to stop, I mean it, I want to make you stop but you mustn't stop, we both know it. I just hurts so badly, I have an almost overwhelming urge to interfere with the paddling, my hand, kicking, I want a pillow on my backside, so you cannot spank my bare bottom. I want to jerk my bottom out of your reach, but I am trapped solidly between your legs and arm, and I want so much to cry in desperation, to let you know how it feels but not to stop you.

When it is a truly hard spanking, I feel such helplessness that I cannot interfere with it. I can only choose surrender to your discipline, until it is done. Then toward the end, fear wells up again, as I always think the last spanks will surely be the worst. I wait for those, wanting them to come, but not wanting to feel them, great ambivalence. I am never angry, never. Instead, at the end, I am tired and often in tears but refreshed, content.

After...

I need you. Total surrender leaves me very vulnerable. I feel little and tender. I want you to hold me, tightly. I need your arms around me. I want to talk, cry on your chest. I feel deeply connected. A very peaceful calm stays with me for a very long time, if it has been an emotional experience, which it always is. It is one of my most powerful experiences, it changes me. It creates a calmness within me that radiates a joyful existence. I notice it every day.

The burning in my bottom is incessant but it becomes pleasant. If it is tender the next day, I am happy. I enjoy looking at the redness, I enjoy you looking at it if I am in the corner. Sometimes I need you to spank me again. It never hurts as much the second time, at least not quite as much. If I haven't cried the first time I almost certainly will now.

There are really no negatives to a discipline spanking, except the spanking itself, but even this is not true. I like that too but not in a way I can easily express. I like the touch, the firmness, the certainty even though it is so painful; it is a path to a place I need to go with the one who holds my deepest trust.


I think the writing is lovely.

Have a fun weekend.

Ronnie
xx

15 comments:

NoraJean said...

So, so good! ... thank-you for sharing, Ronnie ... nj ... xx

Roz said...

Hi Ronnie, wow, this is so well written and brilliantly expresses the thoughts, feelings and emotions before, during and after a spanking. Thank you for sharing this. Hope you have a wonderful weekend :)

Hugs
Roz

Ella said...

Oh, thank you so much for posting this again, Ronnie. I have never read it, and it is just beautiful. If you know this reader personally, please let her know how much it was appreciated.

Once in a great while, a post like this will really speak to me. This one surely did. Just a few days ago, Sam asked me again to read a special post to him when they come along. For sure it will be this one.

Hugs Across the Pond,
Ella

Meredith Malloy said...

Wow........ Ronnie, thank you for sharing this. If only we could convince this writer to blog. If you know her, let's try to do that. Perhaps tell her to contact me if she would like to talk.
Meredith

Leigh Smith said...

I don't remember if I've read this before or not, but it is very well written and captures the realities of the before during and after a spanking. She knows of what she speaks.

Rosie Jones said...

Beautiful piece, Ronnie. I hadn’t seen it before, thank you for posting it again.
Rosie xx

Windy said...

Ronnie,
Wow! That made me feel some intense things. It is beautifully written and I am so glad the reader shared it with you and then you shared it here again so those of who haven't seen it actually could. I hope she writes in her life in some way. She's too gifted not to. She would be a blessing here in blog land ...... :)

Blondie said...

This is really good. Thanks for sharing it again, I don't remember it so it's new to me.

Eric51 Amy49 said...

This is fantastic Ronnie! So very true.
Amy

Anonymous said...

I had read this before. I relate to most of it. I love the writing as it describes the whole spanking so accurately.

Yorkie

ronnie said...

Nora Jean - My pleasure. Thanks.

Roz - I agree, she expresses her thoughts so well. Thanks.

Ella - Beautiful indeed. Sadly the reader who sent it to me can't remember where she found it. Be interested to hear what Sam thinks of it. Thanks.

Meredith - No idea who wrote it but when I have a little more time I will search around blogland to find out. Thanks,

SG - She most certainly does know and yes so very well written. Thanks.

Rosie - It is. My pleasure. Thanks.

Windy - You are so write, such a talentedd writer. Thanks.

Blondie - Happy you enjoyed it Thanks.

Amy - Quite beautiful. Thanks.

Yorkie - Yes the writing is beautiful. Do you know who wrote it?

Love,
Ronnie
xx

Hermione said...

So very eloquent. Thank you, Ronnie, for reposting this.

Hugs,
Hermione

Anonymous said...

Sorry Ronnie, can’t remember where I saw it.

Yorkie

Anonymous said...

I think I’ve found the original post but I can’t find the author.

http://www.takeninhand.com/how.i.feel.before.during.and.after.being.spanked

Yorkie

ronnie said...

Hermione - My pleasure. Just wish we knew who the author was. Thanks.

Yorkie - I can't see who the author was either. Thanks for looking.

Love,
Ronnie
xx